PAINSHIPPING - CHAPBOOK

Viveka Jae Ok Hansson

OUT n Ab.out

PAINSHIP has have played *

a large part throughout my whole adult *

life. It started out in my early teenage stage. *

I still remember the deep intense & burdened *

feelings that entered my life when I became a teenager.

At the time, I was unable to express my feelings verbally *

* & the only way I knew how to communicate with them * *

was through my writing. Writing has been part of my whole

* life, on and off, ever since. & if and when I did not write, I *

* photographed or painted. I got my first camera from my *

* Dad when I was ten, & photography has played a major *

role in my life. Both my family & friends grew accustomed

to me photographing them time & again. Entering an art

* class when I got lost in the woods just enrolling my *

* university studies did me good & soothed my * *

sacred body, tender soul, beautiful being & *

* doing & lastly delicate senses. *

*

Furthermore, trying to start *

* a family with poor results, I then *

decided to do a photo exhibition and invite *

all my friends, family members and dear colleagues *

* from work. It turned out to be a huge success and this *

is also when I got pregnant with my daughter, turning eight

* years old in 2025. I am back into writing. I love it. It gives *

* * * me peace & solace. I understand that I have a deep *

* need to write. Writing is in my core & bones. But I do *

understand, by now, having my needs met, soothing

my senses & so on is crucial a prerequisite for * *

pulling off a mesmerising writing journey. *

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* Ode to all my human interactions *

& human experiences I have had so far in * *

* this lifetime but my ode goes especially to you,

Helena Roth, dearest embodied soul, for keeping

your senses open, embracing me exactly the way

I am, understand where I am coming from, & *

* cheering me for all that I am not yet have *

become. I am forever grateful that our paths

* crossed when I needed it the most, & not to *

mention, the way our energies create a remarkable

expansion in my psyche, as well, as yours. It is as the *

earth quakes below our feet when our souls synchronise *

* with one another. I am quite certain that divine inter- * *

ventions introduced us in order for us to explore the luxury

of being a human being & use it in our creative endeavours.

Keep shining bright like a diamond. You are our torch of *

* light in times of darkness & when in desperate *

* * * * need of solace & solemnity. * * * *